The other day I needed to write something for my new book, but my mind was blank and I couldn’t think what to put down. As I stared at the screen, its emptiness seemed to reflect the way I sometimes feel about myself when I get tired or over stretched and the old hurts well up again. I start to feel that I am a bit of a nothing person without any worthwhile opinions or ideas. I know this is a lie from the enemy, but I heard it so often in my childhood that sometimes it’s hard to shake off and hard to believe God’s truth, that I am made in His image and have the mind of Christ. Many of us have a similar struggle but our Father God is constantly longing to heal those old wounds and speak His transforming truth into our lives. On this occasion as I stared at the screen I suddenly found myself in a conversation with the Father – I was sharing these thoughts of nothingness and then amazingly hearing Him whisper an answer into my heart. It was a beautiful answer and I am so glad I wrote it down as it is changing me within. Please take time to read it and take in its truths for yourself and you will find His healing love reaching down into the depths of your being.
Conversation with the Father
I am staring at a blank screen and wondering what to type
Do I have anything within me to share?
Or am I just a blankness like this screen?
A facade, an outer shell?
But nothing of depth in me?
Do I have to await others stronger than I
to write their thoughts upon me,
Like I write my own upon this screen?
For their opinions to become mine?
and thus come into my own being?
So often this is actually how I live
Afraid to explore my own thoughts,
Afraid to trust in my own validity
so I wait for others to give me theirs.
But in my heart I hear the voice of my Father whispering to me:
'Whose hands wove you together in your mother's womb
and lovingly formed your inmost being?
Who painted you with unique colours of joy and love
and touched your DNA with my kiss?
Who celebrated your conception before this world was formed
And danced with delight at your birth?
Could I have created just a nothing, a blank
A tablet to be written on, but without its own beauty?
Child, I formed you in my image, you in me and I in you.
Many pathways in your life you have left unexplored,
because of your fear that you are nothing.
Dare to believe that I created you in love
And I cannot make mistakes.
Live in wonder, joyfully ask and seek
And you will find me.
Don’t hide behind what others say or think,
But receive their opinions with love and honour
Even while rejoicing in living your own uniqueness
For have I not chosen you to be my bride?
To be my friend, my beloved child and heir?
My co worker whom I trust with my Kingdom?
Look within child and discover the depths
And dare to live as the one I’ve created you to be.’
PRAYER Father thank you for your amazing love or me and that you created me to be unique. I receive your love and choose to let go of all the old negatives and lies about myself. Thank you you love me as your beloved child. Amen.
